My mind is racing, and yet I can't seem to think of anything all at the same time.
What's going to happen?
Was it something I did?
Is there anything I can do?
Why is this happening?
On Friday afternoon, I was rushing around trying to get everything ready for Van's birthday party that night. I wanted everything to be perfect. I had all the presents bought, the decorations were ready, and I was just starting the cake. I had to make a last minute run to Fry's, and when I got home I went straight into the bathroom. (Dang my small bladder. Pregnancy surely doesn't help with that.) And then, the day changed.
Blood. Everywhere. I panicked. I never had one spot with Van. I didn't know what to do. I started bawling, got so upset that I threw up. It came out of nowhere. No pain. No cramps. I called my mom in, and she immediately got on the phone with the doctor. My doctor wasn't in that day, so they told us to go straight to the ER.
We rushed to the ER, only to wait...and wait....and wait. Finally the doctor came. They asked a million questions, gave me an IV, took blood, did exams, and an ultrasound. This was probably the best part of the day. As soon as she put the ultrasound screen where I could see it. I saw the baby. And I saw the heart beating and little arms and legs flailing around. Best sight in the world.
So, at least the baby was alive. But, no answers as to the bleeding. I was sent home with instructions to stay in bed, drink plenty of fluids, and not lift anything. Not lift? I have a one year old. Don't know how I'm going to manage that.
The bleeding continued all day Friday, slowed on Saturday, and pretty much stopped Sunday night. But while the bleeding stopped, the cramping got worse. I'm still having them off and on. For now, I'm just trying to relax (trying) and not think about it. My mom has been Van's surrogate Mama. I'm so thankful for her and for all the friends and family that have been praying for us.
For now, I guess that's all I can do. Pray. And wait.
17 hours ago
10 comments:
I'm so sorry Niki. I hope everything calms down soon. I had bleeding with both my daughters. It is absolutely the scariest thing in the world. The best thing I did was to get a blessing, it helped calm me somewhat. I am thinking of you and praying for you!
I hope everything is going to be okay. I bled with reagan like that for a month and then continued to spot throughout my pregnancy. they didn't know why either. its nerve racking! I hope its nothing, and your baby is fine.
I can't imagine how you must be feeling, but we are praying for you over here and I know the Lord will take care of you and that beautiful baby growing inside of you. If you ever need help with anything let me know. We would be happy to bring dinner or babysit or whatever! Jake would love having a playmate!
Niki...I am sorry...I know it is soo scary! I bled with Lauren and with this one...this one was worst. I never did anything with Clay...I am beginning to think it happens more when your preggo with a girl. I have friends that did the same thing when they were preggo with girls. Just try to stay off your feet for a while...I am sure everything will be fine! Your in our prayers!
Lots of prayers for you Niki!
Oh Niki! I am so sorry you have to go through this. You are one tough cookie. I love you tons! Wish more than ever I was closer... You and your little family are in my prayers.
How interesting that your friend mentioned common bleeding with girls. I had spotting for about three weeks with Elle too. Scared me to death because I never had that with Collin. I hope everything is ok Nik. Hang in there and keep us posted!
That's so scary! I'm glad you got to see that the baby was ok and that the bleeding has eased up. I pray the rest of the pregnancy goes well for you & baby with no more scares! Glad your Mom was around to help! Was this your first peek at the baby?
My sister is going through the same thing with bleeding in her pregnancy. VERY scary. She's been bleeding for over ten weeks now (starting at 5 weeks), and on bed rest for a large part of that, because of a subchorionic hematoma. Usually no big deal, but in her case it has been. Oh...and she's having a girl too. So maybe what they're saying is true. Hope things work out for you and your little one!!
My heart and prayers go out to you Niki. I'm so sorry.
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